Some people who shall remain nameless are right buggers. You know who you are too Caleb!

I miss the Halloweens of my adopted country sometimes. The sparkle, the glitter, the running around the neighborhood with kids laughing and squealing. Where I lived we had seasons and it was great to walk through the leaves that had fallen and see them in piles next to the streets waiting to be picked up by the big trucks. Fires were not allowed as asthmatics can suffer from the fumes but the colors were spectacular.

England hasn't quite gotten the whole Halloween thing down pat yet, we are more interested in Guy Fawkes. Personally I don't get it it's rather morbid. Living in the US for so long though I still enjoy the fireworks and have to look at them when they go off from about two weeks ago and for another three or four.

Here they use fireworks almost on a monthly basis it seems sometimes. I was telling one lady that I know I still like them because in the states we only get them once a year.

Mr Kipling came out with what he calls Fiendish Fancies and they have been my downfall this year. They are white cake covered in icing that is orange and oh are they good!

We've gone through this change at our house the past few days and I think it may actually help. You see I was not feeling as secure as I could and after mulling it over for months finally sat down and wrote a letter to my Top. She agreed and we bought hot dogs last night.

Now for those of you who don't know me for some inexplicable reason I want a hot dog after being spanked. Well actually it might be because she spanked me once and we went to IKEA and when you go there you just have to have one of their hot dogs. Funny the things you associate together.

I did make her laugh though which I hadn't planned on. You see she was doing aversion therapy and gave me malteasers. I had two and had just popped the third one in my mouth but by then the spanks were really beginning to make me choke so I took it back out and told her she could have it back. For some reason she found that funny. It's been two days now and if I sit for very long I can still feel the sting a little in certain parts.

Caleb is all in a twist over the whole Ross and Brand thing, I think he should get a grip. If you were making millions would you so lightly resign? Secretly though I agree that Brand was the bigger man in this though.

One thing I am a bit upset over is Dr. Who. It seems David Tennett is leaving us. Sadly. There isn't going to be a regular season this year either. He is doing four (I think he said) specials and then that is it. I can see why they would having left it as they did and it needs answering!

Two of the names they have tossed out for the next(?) doctor are Robert Carlyle and James Nesbitt. One is Scottish and was in The Full Monty but I don't particuarly care for him in other things. and the other is Irish and does the cutest 118/24/7 adverts. So you can guess who my pick would be. The other two I have never heard of or seen before so they mean nothing to me.

Oh and one last thing... how come I get Adam and not my very own Top? I am so abused!

Happy Halloween!

Heaven or Hell?

When I was quite young, probably between 4 and 7 my biggest fear was that someone I knew or loved would not get to go to Heaven. I especially feared for my one uncle who was athiest.

He died when I was 15. I mourned his death but also by this time had come to the conclusion that everyone goes to heaven. You may wonder why or you may scoff but for me and millions more like me this is the fact. It wasn't proven until years later with the discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls and especially those in Cave 4.

Now to be honest I rarely go to any church. The mood has to be right, the want has to be there and I have to get up on time. Churches like most things are man made to start and mean nothing to me anyway but every so often I go because I have a need to be there.

People have asked where my beliefs come from and I have only one answer for them, they come from God Himself. I read the Bible and then talk to Him about what I've read.

I do not claim to be a theologian but I did take a course on St. Paul as he gave me so much grief with his way of looking at women in general. In his books you will find all the answers to the whole heaven/hell question if you have the eyes to see.

Paul states that we, meaning all of us will be purified if needed, cleansed of all wrong doing, and one day will sit in heaven also. Paul states that Sodom and Gomorah will be restored to their former glory as does Isaiah. There is no everlasting torment, only refinement for an age in God's paln for us. So sleep easy, all those who don't believe will one day and all those who are evil and abusive and destroyers now will one day become good and wonderful souls.

Hard to swallow?

For some I suppose it is. There have been many atrocities committed on this world, things we cannot forgive let alone forget but God can.

He cared so much and wanted His plan to work so well that He sent Jesus to take the brunt of it all and there is our most basic of answers folks. If Jesus died for the sins of the world and that includes the evil people as well, then who are we to kick him in the teeth and say his gift is no good?

Jesus died for me and he died for Ted Bundy too.

If you really want to know how it works then read a book called The Jerome Conspiracy. It is written by the son of an evangical preacher and yes quite simple as are all Christian books but it will open your eyes to a new and wonderful world of who and what God is really all about.

Stupid!

I watched a few episodes of his How to look good naked show and was bored so stopped. But this is so ridiculous I don't know if I can even articulate just how stupid this is.

I watched the first episode of this and was impressed with how they ran the contest, how they treated the girls and the way the girls re acted.

To say he humiliated them is a gross over statement and very myopic. These women were all given the option of continuing on or stopping at each point and they braved their way through it all. If anyone had looked at their faces with the "hose" part they would of seen huge smiles, squeals of happiness and all in all having fun. There were big fluffy towels after and hot cups of tea.

If the man had come to Leeds I would of been happy to be on his show. Grow up people and quit being so anal.

Gok Wan has defended his new show Miss Naked Beauty after it was claimed he humiliated his contestants.The show is a modern twist on classic beauty pageants and sees 200 women stripped bare to see their true colours.
But in one episode, women were blasted with a water hose in an attempt to take their make-up off.
The TV stylist, who rose to fame presenting How To Look Good Naked, said: "Never at one point are the girls put in any danger and never were they put into an area where they were so vulnerable, they wouldn't have been able to cope.
"This show is going to be provoking controversy because of the nature of the show. What we're doing is turning around and saying, 'right, stand up to everything that we believe, stand up to everything that we've been told over the years and form a new opinion'.
"And the new opinion is, you can be naturally beautiful and gorgeous."

I have another blog to share with you but not on this page and not before I take out the bin, lol. If I don't I just know those rubbish guys will come in the middle of it all.

Hang tight!

Continuing On...

Xena and Gabrielle. What they conjure in the male mind is boggling. I remember watching it on channel 50 which is out of Chicago and at the bottom they were having real time discussion on the whole thing. All the guys said these two were gay. All I can say is SNORT! It just shows that heterosexual men never get their minds out of their pants. If they gave it any thought at all it would become crystal clear that these two share a romantic relationship.

I can't say for sure if they share a discipline one or not but there were times I bet Xena's palms itched like crazy! Not only over things that Gabrielle did but Joxer too! That man could get himself into a world of hurt.

One thing that I have noticed since moving here is that the women tend to wear these really horrible shoes. I don't know if they have them quite the same in the US but OH MY! the heels are like 5"! Why on earth would anyone want to do that to themselves? Funnily enough we watch this show called Spendaholics when we think about it and many many times on there the ladies all have these HUGE collections of these shoes, some they haven't even worn. It makes prefect sense to have 300 pairs of shoes doesn't it? All guaranteed to make you get nose bleeds and ruin your feet at the same time. I don't get it. I wear crocs or trainers rarely anything remotely girly although I do own a pair of mary janes (flat heels though and black). Those are for the times when Sarah makes me wear a dress.

Even my boots are flat, lol!

After giving it a lot of thought though I suppose I would have to camp in the lesbian one. I really can't see much use for men other than, hmm, well, nope can't see any really. Does being lesbian mean I have to have sex with a woman? I don't think so. That is sexual orientation not love of women. Men mostly make me squirky although there are a few that I can be around and feel comfortable with. I think it's because they are safe for me. One is all the way in Texas and he's a brat too, so there is that affinity with him. Another is here and he's a brat too. I don't mind his Top though either unless the man gets angry. He's so not cool then.

I'm sure I am over thinking the whole thing; I do that a lot but it's my nature, lol. Anyway I will just leave this as is because it's just the way it is for me.

I was reading at a soul mate site the other day and it made me crazy to think that people can be so narrow in their thinking. This one person even said right there in black and white..."only male and female can be soul mates." PUH-LEEZE! Who gave the breeders the sole rights to anything? I knew early on that Sarah was the one for me, I can't speak for her.

So many times she tells me she is not perfect and maybe she isn't, I really wouldn't know. I do think there are more times when she should spank me but that isn't my decision. But even if she's lacking in that one little tiny thing it does not take away the other stuff. She is the kindest, most generous person that I know. She loves me! She really does. Sometimes when I think about that it makes me all gooey inside. Not in a icky way but just the fact that I know that no matter what I do or say she will stand by me and be there to pick up the pieces when I make a mess. Now don't get me wrong. She has her down side too but that isn't at all important really. For me she is the best that there is. She is my romantic friend, my soul mate, my Top and my best friend.

Coming up next... my journey on do gays go to hell?

A Little Time...

Yesterday I had a little time to do some searching; or was it Saturday? Oh well, one of them anyways and I found this really cool site for lesbians. Now before you start to get all weird and homophobic on me let me just say I never really thought of myself as lesbian before.

Long ago stuff happened and even though it was long ago it stays with me and makes up a part of me that cannot be changed now. As with all things life changing there are degrees and I suppose I took the extreme one.

But to say I am lesbian would mean I enjoy sex with women too and I don't know that I would. I have not tried it but have read about it and it does not make me all tingly or excited.

In some ways I am lesbian though, I do prefer women over men; especially men who ooze sexual prowess. You know the type I mean right? I don't mind what I call "safe" men. They are fine to be around.

When I look at a woman I do think she's hot or put together fine but don't immediately undress her. There is only one woman who does it all for me and she lives here, lol.

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What we have goes well beyond the whole lesbian thing though. It goes to romantic friendship. If two women can get there they have truly reached the top of the ladder and have something so special that it cannot be touched by anyone. Nothing surpasses it or comes close to it. That isn't to say we don't have arguments or hurt feelings or sulking because we do, after all we are both human.

It really saddens me when I talk to my friend down the way and get told that most women on the computer do not like their own sex. He finds it humourous that they all want to write about men when they don't really know they are writing about women's feelings and emotions and he keeps telling me one day he is going to write a real gay story and show them how it works, lol. Now that will be the funniest thing.

I read the stories too and enjoy them because they are writen so girly. I just presumed that they all realised that they were really writing women and not men but there I go being presumptuous or is it giving credit where credit is not due? LOL I never know for sure.

Anyways it's early morning for me and I have muchly to do today. It's an early day for the Top at work and I want to get a few things done before I am invaded by authority figures again.

*Oh and I guess I should explain that picture. You see boi is a lesbian thing.

Superstitons

BED
It's bad luck to put a hat on a bed.

If you make a bedspread, or a quilt, be sure to finish it or marriage will never come to you

Placing a bed facing north and south brings misfortune.

You must get out of bed on the same side that you get in or you will have bad luck.

When making the bed, don't interrupt your work, or you will spend a restless night in it.

BROOM
Do not lean a broom against a bed. The evil spirits in the broom will cast a spell on the bed.

If you sweep trash out the door after dark, it will bring a stranger to visit.

If someone is sweeping the floor and sweeps over your feet, you'll never get married.

Never take a broom along when you move. Throw it out and buy a new one.

To prevent an unwelcome guest from returning, sweep out the room they stayed in immediately after they leave.

DOOR
It's bad luck to leave a house through a different door than the one used to come into it.

MIRROR
To break a mirror means 7 years bad luck.

It is unlucky to see your face in a mirror by candlelight.

A mirror should be covered during a thunderstorm because it attracts lightning.

If a mirror in the house falls and breaks by itself, someone in the house will die soon.

PENCIL
If you use the same pencil to take a test that you used for studying for the test, the pencil will remember the answers.

ROCKING CHAIR
If you leave a rocking chair rocking when empty, it invites evil spirits to come into your house to sit in the rocking chair.

WINDOW
All windows should be opened at the moment of death so that the soul can leave.

BIRTH
Monday's child is fair of face;

Tuesday's child is full of grace;

Wednesday's child is full of woe;

Thursday's child has far to go;

Friday's child is loving and giving;

Saturday's child works hard for a living.

But the child that is born on the Sabbath day is fair and wise, good and gay.

BLUE
To protect yourself from witches, wear a blue bead.

Touch blue And your wish Will come true.

COUNTING CROWS
One's bad,

Two's luck,

Three's health,

Four's wealth,

Five's sickness,

Six is death.

EARS
If your right ear itches, someone is speaking well of you.

If your left ear itches, someone is speaking ill of you.

Left for love and right for spite:Left or right, good at night.

FLOWER
First Flower of Spring: The day you find the first flower of the season can be used as an omen:

Monday means good fortune

Tuesday means greatest attempts will be successful,

Wednesday means marriage,

Thursday means warning of small profits,

Friday means wealth,

Saturday means misfortune,

Sunday means excellent luck for weeks.

ITCH
If your nose itches you will soon be kissed by a fool.

If your nose itches Your mouth is in danger. You'll kiss a fool, And meet a stranger. Rub an itch to wood It will come to good.

SNEEZE
Place a hand in front of your mouth when sneezing. Your soul may escape otherwise.

The devil can enter your body when you sneeze. Having someone say, "God bless you," drives the devil away.

If you sneeze on a Monday, you sneeze for danger;

Sneeze on a Tuesday, kiss a stranger;

Sneeze on a Wednesday, sneeze for a letter;

Sneeze on a Thursday, something better;

Sneeze on a Friday, sneeze for sorrow;

Sneeze on a Saturday, see your sweetheart tomorrow.

Sneeze on a Sunday, and the devil will have domination over you all week.

One for sorrow

Two for joy

Three for a letter

Four for a boy.

Five for silver

Six for gold

Seven for a secret, never to be told.

WEATHER
Red sky at night, Sailor's delight. Red sky at morningSailors take warning

Rain, rain, go away, Come again another day. Rain on the green grassRain on the hillside, But not on me.

Hello to you...

It's been a while since I've blogged, wrote, even been on the computer so bare with me while I get my sea legs back okay?

First off we have had tons of things going on around the neighbourhood since summer began with conservatories going up everywhere it seems. Also our neighbour to the left? right? of us has finally put in his back garden and it looks much nicer now. The man is a moron to begin with and that is enough said about him.

Oh wait, he and his wife became grandparents to some sort of rodent I think. To hear that baby wail is like listening to an animal being slaughtered. Very nasty noise indeed.

Now on to the particulars...

I am a brat. Not one of those that you read about and goo goo over but a real one with a brain and everything. I know that's hard to phathom for some but yes there are intelligent brats out there folks, you just haven't met them yet!

I didn't know I was a brat until around six years ago when Sarah, that's my Top told me. Funny isn't it? You can go your whole life to a point and then wham, things finally make some sense to you. I just thought I was sensitive and stubborn LOL!

Now though, I know my quirks are all related to that and how I was originally put together. I don't know how many people out there really think about girls being brats but hey we are and let me tell you we aren't really so much different from the boys.

Oh, I know most of you have read a few or a lot of those fictions on the computer and thought "aww" but it isn't so much that way all the time. Yeah we can be "aww" but for the most part we are just the more child like sort of people walking around every day that you might meet.

And no, I do not mean childish. Those are the wannabes or the spankos or the age play folks that we steer clear of. They think they are something but really they are sad fetish people.

There is a big difference between having a fetish and being a certain way.

Since this is supposed to be about being and living and such there will be a lot of this sort of talk going on.

If I decide to write a story I may put it here but don't hold your breath on that one. Most of them go to my group as they are elfcentric.

Well enough of this for now but remember I warned you there will be more bwaahhaaaa!!!